Last night, I received this message:
“Have you done any new music? I need some positive inspired work."
I’ve heard this before.
From strangers. From people I know. From those who find something in my songs that help them keep going.
And I never take it lightly.
I stared at the message for a while before responding.
Because if I’m honest–I’ve been needing something positive and inspiring as well.
It’s been about two years since I dropped a music project. Not because I’m uninspired. Not because I don’t care. I've written plenty of songs...some halfway written, and most of them are done and just need to be recorded. I’ve started. I’ve planned. I’ve promised myself I’d finish it. But the truth is…
I was emotionally tired. The momentum wasn't there–which is probably how the person who sent me the message feels in their own life right now.
Life demanded more from me over those two years and I couldn't refill myself quick enough. And I’ve been expected to still inspire through all of it.
The Silent Weight of Being “The One People Go To”
There’s a quiet weight that comes with being the one others look to for encouragement, for energy, for vision. Especially when your work is built on purpose, and when you believe the purpose is rooted in God. Because why would you be given this gift if you weren't supposed to use it, right?
It always felt like God was pushing me to speak through music. To share. To create. To finish this next project because someone needs it.
But, sometimes, it’s hard to pour when you yourself can't get it together.
It’s hard to show up sometimes–and still, you feel responsible.
You still care.
You want to show up.
You want to create. You want to keep people going.
YOU may be the person building bridges for people to climb out of their own hell. But what happens when the bridge-builder is exhausted?
The Difference Between being “Done” and “Rebuilding”.
The desire to release music hasn't stopped. I haven’t lost the message, nor am I out of ideas or lacking purpose. I just needed to reset. To regroup, in silence.
Your current season may be about preservation. And honestly, that’s not something people usually give you permission to be in– especially when your value has always been in what you give.
But at some point, you’ve got to stop giving what YOU don’t even have.
You’re Refueling...
The world moves fast. People expect quick answers, fast drops, immediate turnarounds, etc.
But healing isn’t on a schedule. Nor is creativity a machine.
And leadership doesn’t mean you’re always ready, it means you care enough to come back whole.
What I’ve learned is this:
Sometimes, the pause is the progress.
If you’ve been expected to show up while barely holding yourself together, this is your reminder:
You don’t need to be at your best to still be valuable, however, you do deserve to pause when need be. You’re just getting ready for what’s next, and when it’s time, it’ll be powerful.
You may not feel like showing up right now.
You may feel tired. Overdue. Behind.
And just because you’re not visible, doesn’t mean you’re not valuable.
Sometimes the ones who go quiet for a while... come back with the loudest impact.
Peace.
P.S. The music is coming soon, within months. :-)
written by Morgan | @MORGANtheCEO
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